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It’s a mixture of both.

I am done with everything ( Or maybe not ) And seriously, i don’t want
to bring up any sad memories/stuff right now. Yes, i can’t deny, i am devastated.
But i am trying to question myself, what exactly is the best solution to this.
Didn’t realize how much one could affect another. Don’t ask me anything right
now, cos i won’t reply. I tried forgetting you, to let go of everything that
made me happy being with u. Well, i thought i could, but i was wrong. I need
someone, someone who can hear me out, understand what i am trying to bring
across. I want u now, and i want u to know that i really need u more than
anything. I really can’t stand every single second thinking u re no more in my
life. I don’t want my heart to split into two, please no more. Thats not the kind
of feeling i want to get. To think that we started off, nice, sweet. I felt the
comfort back then. On the other hand, some asked me to go and fight for
it. I won’t lie, i tried. But it was useless. This is a game, a
challenge to me. But whatever the result it, at least i know, i’ve failed.

Yesterday’s ,was a total crap. I’ve no idea what’s the footstep, what’s the
rhythm. I am devastated  it’s over. I am distressed
that the term is over.

I’ve no idea how am i feeling right now. I don’t know how should I feel
right now. All i know is that i don’t feel right, and i just know it. It’s
heavy, real heavy this time round. It’s not you, it’s me. Everything. Just me.
Though i don’t really like to be so emotional, but i can’t stop this round.
I cant let go of everything that i’ve been trying to cover and hide all these
while. How i wish i can stop the world, and change every single thing that’s
wrong.

Okay, i am going to stop everything. Stop being a bastard, stop lying to
myself, most importantly, stop being an asshole. Soon after i end my post, lets
pray hard that i’ll be fine.

Goodbye, i can’t produce anything more, my brain’s not functioning
properly right now.