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Hmmm…today…it has been a very tiring day as i have
just reached the city of entertainment..it took me 8 hours to drive up and down
the peninsular…just to meet some of the people i know…i once knew…and now
knowing…=)…yeah…as i am sittin down here in my hotel room i begin to
wonder what would i be if i did not forget her*….how would my life be
now?….would i be still…sittin down in the dark…mourning about the
mistakes i have done?…or blaming myself for the mistakes which made her
decide after 6 painful months of waiting…that i was not the one meant for her……hmmmm…yeah…would
i have chosen the path which was socially prescribed as immoral..and play with
innocent heart’s feelings?…..what would i be now?…would i have gotten the
same results for my high school certificate? would i have gone to a town known
for its peacefulness just to meet the seraph which i assumed that is the right
choice for me…hmm..would i be in the same higher institution?.or even worse.
Would i be doing the same course im doing now?…..what would i be now?…i
would never know….how would life be…if i had not made the decision to
forget her*?….hmmm… but in a way i must be contented with what i have done…because…whatever happens happened
for a reason…because if i had not forgotten her *, i wouldn’t have made a lot
of new friends…=p…yeah take it in a positive way…and of all the friends i
wouldn’t have met the person that i have met in a gathering…the
memories….with that particular person was…different…y?..hmm…i just found
her character different..it was like a person letting u to do anything else as
long s ur sincere her…in the beginning as all the relationship
story…goes…both of us had the same enthusiasm..the person had even
introduced her mum to me …and even told her mum that im her special one…but…yeah…i
was sincere at first…we were very much alike and we thought everything in a
same manner…but towards the end there wasn’t the chemistry anymore…i
decided to end and move away.. 
But
yet again what if i didn’t end the relationship?…what
would i be now?….would i be going trough misery i have never expected
to go
through?….hmm…would i get hurt and become more volatile as never
before?…hmmm…would she go for other fellaz….thinkin that they
were the
one at the end to find out that they weren’t…hmmm..would she have
gone
against my say that the guy she is now
indulging in a relationship is not a guy who is meant for her??…and
at last
finding out in a very harsh way..that he is not the one for
her??…would we
have become best friends now??….hmmm..Then moving on my life i took a
break…stop..all my immoral actions and focus on other things in
life…after
her…then..came a day as i was browsin through the net..i came across
a cherub
which i thought waz different than anything before…but i (knowing
me=p)…didn’t
really took it serious…and…just..maintained a normal pace with
her…but
one day a message came from the cherub …what if i had lost my
phone?…or
changed my number?…or even ignored the message?…would i be who i am
now?…hmmm…i wonder…but yeah…once again wadever happens happened
for a
reason…the cherub thought me a lot..i mean a lot…shaping me into a
different person than i used to be teaching me what is the real meaning
of
life…what is the consequences if a person’s ego is too thick..not to
forget..the
happiness…and haha..not forgetting the pain and sorrow too
=p…yeah..but..anyhow. she apologised 4 whateva happened as she don’t
wanna
hold grudges or hate or hurt ny1 and she felt no point haing as she
didn’t feel
right coz all that would accumulate sins and unnecessary karma..she
decided she wanted to live her life widot any
grudges n ill emotions….i should thank her..maybe because the god in
her have
made her decide what is right for her..at least now she have..made her
stand
and made things right..and clear where i think she is contented with
the guy
who she is with now…..the feelings is still there deep down my
heart…but..fate..is not there to c us together…but yet again we
decide our
fate… In the future..fate would make me find a soul which was really
meant
for me…maybe she is near me but I’m not realising it…maybe i know
her…or
maybe i don’t…..or maybe she is far away from me and I’ll meet her
when the
time comes…therefore ill leave it to the fate to decide when i would
c the right
person…to fall in love with and cherish the person for
eternity….hmm…lets
c….it’s already 10 am….it’s time for me to go and enjoy in the
theme park…weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee…hehex…anyhow..I’m
contented with what i have gone through and what i am now…=).

-Adapted from a life story of an anonymous soul-

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God,
in my point of view……

God,
what is god?..what makes u think he controls everything in this world?…what
makes u think he is the one who created us?…what makes u think that he is the
one who created the universe?…and most of all what makes u think god is a
he?….These are the few questions which have been running through my head for
the past 6 months until now but i have never spoken out about this…..if there
is someone out there which is assumed as god who is believed to control
everything why he is not seen?….what made me really wonder about the
existence of the almighty is where ,for an instance when a man gains something
out of his own effort and endurance he says ‘thank god’ but this is totally
opposite when he loses something or something totally horrible happens to him
he does not blame god instead, he blames himself!…why is this so…i mean
does this mean that god only does good things to u and u do all the bad things
or u do all the mistakes?…and he is supposed to be in command of all the
things happening in this universe…hmmm..i wonder….Besides, why do u think
god is a he?…or maybe why do u think he is humanlike ? my question is i do believe
that the universe is very wide and there is great speculation that there exists other life forms in other planet and
universe does god look like them? Or like us?..hmmm…Now i have just one
simple believe which is god is mankind…confusing huh…yeah..god exist in
each and every one of us…because we decide what we should do…where
sometimes we listen to what the heart whispers…and think before we do…if we
choose the right path a good force is within us…and we choose the wrong
one…a bad force is within us….there is no use going to worship places
…every day of the week a but in the real life do nonsense..According to the
big bang theory…which states that a force have triggered the atoms to collide
and a chain reaction…till the creation of universe…some people speculate
that the force is god….but what makes u say that the force is god…why GOD
and not something else…y cant it be known as force XXX..or YYY..etc
etc…..in my point of view….u do…something wrong blame urself…and if u
do something right thank urself and not someone else or something
else…religion , rituals….etc etc..is create by mankind to encourage people
to do good..therefore mankind is god…god exists in everyone of us….it’s
just what we choose to do…determines whether we’re godlike or devil like… we
all come from a common ancestor…therefore i don’t believe there is a separate
god for every race….race is something created by mankind too….we‘re all one
race which is mankind…and in each and every one of us …exists a
force..Which is positive and negative…it’s how we are able to balance
it…determines our character…i believe .where there is no such thing as an
external force known as god…and we worship him or her as a superior power,
instead believe that there is a force in each and every one of us which is
godlike….I’m not an atheist , as a matter of fact I still go to my place of
worship and a ‘guru’s‘ devotee as i believe that someone could lead u to the
right path and realise the god in u…why i go to worship places? I respect my
ancestors effort to unite mankind under one roof to do good…which was race
and religion…but…i believe that god is a force..Which is each and every one
of us… it’s just how we use it….

-This
is my personal opinion, it was not meant to discriminate anyone’s faith towards
their religion or race-

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