What if i…
Hmmm…today…it has been a very tiring day as i have
just reached the city of entertainment..it took me 8 hours to drive up and down
the peninsular…just to meet some of the people i know…i once knew…and now
knowing…=)…yeah…as i am sittin down here in my hotel room i begin to
wonder what would i be if i did not forget her*….how would my life be
now?….would i be still…sittin down in the dark…mourning about the
mistakes i have done?…or blaming myself for the mistakes which made her
decide after 6 painful months of waiting…that i was not the one meant for her……hmmmm…yeah…would
i have chosen the path which was socially prescribed as immoral..and play with
innocent heart’s feelings?…..what would i be now?…would i have gotten the
same results for my high school certificate? would i have gone to a town known
for its peacefulness just to meet the seraph which i assumed that is the right
choice for me…hmm..would i be in the same higher institution?.or even worse.
Would i be doing the same course im doing now?…..what would i be now?…i
would never know….how would life be…if i had not made the decision to
forget her*?….hmmm… but in a way i must be contented with what i have done…because…whatever happens happened
for a reason…because if i had not forgotten her *, i wouldn’t have made a lot
of new friends…=p…yeah take it in a positive way…and of all the friends i
wouldn’t have met the person that i have met in a gathering…the
memories….with that particular person was…different…y?..hmm…i just found
her character different..it was like a person letting u to do anything else as
long s ur sincere her…in the beginning as all the relationship
story…goes…both of us had the same enthusiasm..the person had even
introduced her mum to me …and even told her mum that im her special one…but…yeah…i
was sincere at first…we were very much alike and we thought everything in a
same manner…but towards the end there wasn’t the chemistry anymore…i
decided to end and move away..
But
yet again what if i didn’t end the relationship?…what
would i be now?….would i be going trough misery i have never expected
to go
through?….hmm…would i get hurt and become more volatile as never
before?…hmmm…would she go for other fellaz….thinkin that they
were the
one at the end to find out that they weren’t…hmmm..would she have
gone
against my say that the guy she is now
indulging in a relationship is not a guy who is meant for her??…and
at last
finding out in a very harsh way..that he is not the one for
her??…would we
have become best friends now??….hmmm..Then moving on my life i took a
break…stop..all my immoral actions and focus on other things in
life…after
her…then..came a day as i was browsin through the net..i came across
a cherub
which i thought waz different than anything before…but i (knowing
me=p)…didn’t
really took it serious…and…just..maintained a normal pace with
her…but
one day a message came from the cherub …what if i had lost my
phone?…or
changed my number?…or even ignored the message?…would i be who i am
now?…hmmm…i wonder…but yeah…once again wadever happens happened
for a
reason…the cherub thought me a lot..i mean a lot…shaping me into a
different person than i used to be teaching me what is the real meaning
of
life…what is the consequences if a person’s ego is too thick..not to
forget..the
happiness…and haha..not forgetting the pain and sorrow too
=p…yeah..but..anyhow. she apologised 4 whateva happened as she don’t
wanna
hold grudges or hate or hurt ny1 and she felt no point haing as she
didn’t feel
right coz all that would accumulate sins and unnecessary karma..she
decided she wanted to live her life widot any
grudges n ill emotions….i should thank her..maybe because the god in
her have
made her decide what is right for her..at least now she have..made her
stand
and made things right..and clear where i think she is contented with
the guy
who she is with now…..the feelings is still there deep down my
heart…but..fate..is not there to c us together…but yet again we
decide our
fate… In the future..fate would make me find a soul which was really
meant
for me…maybe she is near me but I’m not realising it…maybe i know
her…or
maybe i don’t…..or maybe she is far away from me and I’ll meet her
when the
time comes…therefore ill leave it to the fate to decide when i would
c the right
person…to fall in love with and cherish the person for
eternity….hmm…lets
c….it’s already 10 am….it’s time for me to go and enjoy in the
theme park…weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee…hehex…anyhow..I’m
contented with what i have gone through and what i am now…=).
-Adapted from a life story of an anonymous soul-
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